So Thursday was one of the most amazing experiences of my life. David and I headed to our first prenatal appointment with our new OB. Everything happened too fast for me to be nervous. After we got lost in a maze of an outpatient center, we arrived 10 minutes late and paperwork was shoved at me so quickly, "write down every hospitalization and reason for it"- ha that made me laugh, I wrote "A LOT" in big letters to cover all the columns. She was rushing me to get me back to see the doctor, as soon as I handed her the paperwork and sat next to David the door opened and the nurse was there to get me, they made me pee in a cup while they sent David to ultrasound. My heart was pounding out of my chest and in the bathroom Jesus and I had a little conversation about how he better stick next to me in the next few minutes, because either way I wanted him there.
We got in the room, met the Dr, ran through a few quick details about our previous loss, and up on the table I went. Poor David was squished in the corner holding my purse. The room was too awkward for him to come around and hold my hand, although I wanted that more than anything. Since the first ultrasound was the first we'd learned we lost first baby I was a bit of a wreck. It didn't take long though, a few seconds later I hear the Dr say, "yup, you're pregnant"- (as if I didn't know that, there have been just a few subtle reminders in the past few weeks) but there it was- a little blob that was going to change my whole world. She showed us the spinal cord, the little arm that was sticking straight out as if to say "hi mom and dad", and then I saw it, the flashing light in the middle of the gummy bears body. A heart, beating. I looked at David and we both laughed with tears in our eyes. Amazing. In that second everything felt worth it, and I knew my life would never be the same. Can't wait to meet our little bear sometime around December 16th. I'll try to keep this blog updated with belly and ultrasound photos. Happy day!
